“Until I started taking my antidepressants, though, I didn’t actually know that I was depressed. I thought the dark staticky corners were part of who I was. It was the same way I felt before I put on my first pair of glasses at age 14 and suddenly realized that trees weren’t green blobs but intricate filigrees of thousands of individual leaves; I hadn’t known, before, that I couldn’t see the leaves, because I didn’t realize that seeing leaves was a possibility at all. And it wasn’t until I started using tools to counterbalance my depression that I even realized there was depression there to need counterbalancing. I had no idea that not everyone felt the gravitational pull of nothingness, the ongoing, slow-as-molasses feeling of melting down into a lump of clay. I had no way of knowing that what I thought were just my ingrained bad habits — not being able to deposit checks on time, not replying to totally pleasant emails for long enough that friendships were ruined, having silent meltdowns over getting dressed in the morning, even not going to the bathroom despite really, really, really having to pee — weren’t actually my habits at all. They were the habits of depression, which whoa, holy shit, it turns out I had a raging case of.”—
Not Everyone Feels This Way — The Archipelago — Medium (via brutereason)
But if your brain is telling you anything contrary to the fact that you are good, capable, and in control, and that the world contains paths to happiness which you — yes you, shitty unworthy fraudulent lazy waste-of-space you — are qualified to walk down, then you should consider the possibility that you are fighting malware and you don’t even know it.
I really needed to read this today.
(via perfectlywhelmed)
I would love to know how much of this is Me and how much is an anxiety disorder
mitski’s new song & video are incredible
me: oh no my period started!! it’s an emergency i need a pad oh no
some nice girl who is just trying to help: oh here! i have a tampon!
me: Thank You For Your Concern But I Am Not Putting That In My Body
i literally never realized “lord farquaad” was meant to sound like “lord fuckwad” until this very moment
I had to read this a few times to understand it and I think it destroyed some neurotransmitters in the process
If this were done as an intentional art piece to illustrate the way that one’s social capital, no matter how arbitrarily acquired, can translate into opportunities unavailable to most people without concern for merit or need, then it would be really brilliant, but this is 2018 and metaphor is dead, so
this guy literally doesnt need tan
You know I love it, so please don’t stop it
You got me right here in your jean pocket (right now)
Laying your body on a shag carpet (oh)
You know I love it so please don’t stop itJanelle Monáe – Make Me Feel
this man asked if its okay to buy an engagement ring with a skull on it and antoni went through every stage of grief in the background within about four seconds
Hell, DeVos wants to allow ICE to raid schools. I will ice-block those assholes so hard if it gives my kids time to run.
“He cut class today.”
“She’s in the bathroom.”
“Field trip.”
“Who?”
“None of them have their papers here, you think these kids aren’t irresponsible enough to lose them? They all keep them at home.”
“You need to check in at the office and get a visitors badge. No, really, let me take you down there so you don’t get lost.”
“Hey, you work for the government. I want to talk to you about getting some new textbooks, these ones all say racism ended in the 60s.”
so my mom lost her job and isn’t starting her new one until september so for july and august i have no health care. which would be fine because i rarely get sick, but i have been bleeding out of my vagina for five months and nobody knows what’s wrong with me. the ultrasound was normal - no cysts or fibroids or polyps. apparently i’m “fine”. except that i shouldn’t be bleeding out of my vagina for five months straight. so now i can’t do any more tests until september so i will have to keep bleeding because nothing fixes it, not even birth control. i took out my iud because i thought it wasn’t working bc i was bleeding all the time and i went back on the pill and surprise! still bleeding. so i’m super freaked out and i finally got thinx because all the blood was really taking a toll on my mental health (and my underwear). but i need it to stop, i am super iron deficient and it’s making me go insane and i’m so scared that something terrible is wrong with me. i’m terrified that waiting until september will be the death of my fertility or of me. i don’t know what to do. does anybody have any advice because i literally am losing my mind
ALSO an added bonus: i can’t afford to go to therapy and have to pay for my medication out of pocket. and neither of my parents can afford to help me. so i’m seriously fucked.
hi so this is still going on and i really hate to do this but one of my medications is $150 every month and the others are $75 and $35 and i’m working three part time jobs right now (catering, boston childrens, and nannying) but still struggling and i can either pay for rent or my medication. so if you have anything, which i know a lot of you don’t so that’s so completely fine, my paypal is paypal.me/missisabeljane. i hate to ask this but i am really afraid of what will happen if i have to go off medication, let alone dealing with the other stuff.
thanks lovies ❤️
happy pride i have the weirdest sunburn ever
I’m about to go HAM
- home
- and
- masturbate
the xena smut with the most kudos on ao3 is a/b/o. bye
